So, I kind of dropped off the face of the internet for a month. Sorry about that!
Isn't it funny how when we have nothing going on, and all the time in the world...we seem to be motivated to do nothing? That's pretty much how all of December was for me. I did a whole lot of NOTHING. It was refreshing for about a week before I just fell into a lazy funk.
Now, the beginning of 2011 has brought me a new semester in college and a new job. I've gone from 0 to sixty in about 3 seconds. I'm slightly overwhelmed, but I'm glad to report than some anxiety issues that have plagued me in the past haven't set in yet. A tinge of nervousness, but that's to be expected when you're working on a brand new major and a brand new job in a field you've never worked in before.
Suddenly, despite the fact that I have far less free time now, I'm more eager to start cooking healthy food again and get back to working out. I guess I'm an all or nothing kind of girl.
I'm also glad to report that this year is already looking better than last year. All of my new endeavors aside, I feel more connected to old friends, more outgoing, and overall more confident in myself. 2009 was a shit storm for me, and 2010 was just "ok"...so dare I say...this year will be good? YES! IT WILL! I feel more grounded and thankful for what I have than I did a year ago. I have a BEAUTIFUL nephew who laughs and giggles more and more every single day, a terrific family, and the best friends anyone could ask for. I think I've finally come to a peaceful place in my mind where, when things do go wrong (it's inevitable)...I can say to myself that everything will be ok. I finally feel like I have a bright future ahead of me and a solid plan for how I want it will happen.