Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Revamping Lent

So, I grew up Catholic. Although we certainly weren't strict Catholics...I do recall not eating meat on Fridays during lent. I think we usually had frozen fish sticks and mac and cheese. (Side note: why doesn't fish count?)

I also recall that when I was younger, even my non-Catholic friends gave up something for lent. I'm not sure why...like it was the cool thing to do or something. Since I was a little pansy, I usually made up stupid things in my mind to give up. Things I would have never done anyway.

10 year old CJ: I'm totally giving up dating boys for lent. It should be easy since I don't date and boys have cooties.

Although one year I DID actually give up soda. I think I was a sophomore in high school. I was so damn proud of myself! Too bad that habit didn't stick.

So today, as I was loathing the fact that I have a midterm tomorrow and can't go out and celebrate Mardi Gras tonight (because I'm responsible or something), I started thinking about why exactly we give things up for lent.

I did approximately 0 research, and came to the conclusion that lent should be about bettering yourself. No one gives up GOOD habits for lent, now do they? The Catholic church may disagree...but this is how I see it in my mind.

So this year for lent, I'm just recommitting myself to getting healthy again. I've avoided my twitter account and all the wonderful women at Mamavation because well...I suck. And that's what I do when I feel guilty about something: I avoid it. Because if I ignore something, it will TOTALLY go away. Right? Right.

Now of course, as far as getting healthy goes, that means eating better and exercising more. In a physical sense. I'm also going to focus on my mental health as well...because it's just as important. I'm going to "unplug" more and seize the day. I'm going to make new friends and reconnect with old ones. I may even sing karaoke.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Holy Moly

So, I kind of dropped off the face of the internet for a month. Sorry about that!

Isn't it funny how when we have nothing going on, and all the time in the world...we seem to be motivated to do nothing? That's pretty much how all of December was for me. I did a whole lot of NOTHING. It was refreshing for about a week before I just fell into a lazy funk.

Now, the beginning of 2011 has brought me a new semester in college and a new job. I've gone from 0 to sixty in about 3 seconds. I'm slightly overwhelmed, but I'm glad to report than some anxiety issues that have plagued me in the past haven't set in yet. A tinge of nervousness, but that's to be expected when you're working on a brand new major and a brand new job in a field you've never worked in before.

Suddenly, despite the fact that I have far less free time now, I'm more eager to start cooking healthy food again and get back to working out. I guess I'm an all or nothing kind of girl.

I'm also glad to report that this year is already looking better than last year. All of my new endeavors aside, I feel more connected to old friends, more outgoing, and overall more confident in myself. 2009 was a shit storm for me, and 2010 was just "ok"...so dare I say...this year will be good? YES! IT WILL! I feel more grounded and thankful for what I have than I did a year ago. I have a BEAUTIFUL nephew who laughs and giggles more and more every single day, a terrific family, and the best friends anyone could ask for. I think I've finally come to a peaceful place in my mind where, when things do go wrong (it's inevitable)...I can say to myself that everything will be ok. I finally feel like I have a bright future ahead of me and a solid plan for how I want it will happen.